The End times' Here Mum...and I'm scared.....for my Kids unborn

This post is directed to my Mum, though I know she won't see it cos the best she does on the internet is to read the news via her mobile phone.

Mum, this is it. With the situation of things around the world especially in my dear country Nigeria, I don't feel like I want to get married. The reason being that I don't want to bring up my Kids in this cruel world. This world is full of wickedness.

If raising my kids is up to me and my (future) extended family alone, I have no problem. But my child will have to go to school, he/she will have to socialize and then......he gets mixed-up messages or rather mixed up ideas. Is family right or is family really being logical, Does God really exist? Stuffs like that!

The forces outside are really strong and I'm afraid to say that they are becoming stronger by the day. Their influence is becoming stronger by every passing minute and it is scary, sorry I had to repeat myself there but I'm  really scared.

I look around and people I admire and respect turn around and declare that God doesn't exist! How heartbreaking!

So you see Mother, I don't want to raise a child that will go to school and get all the knowledge he can and then doubt the existence of God, it will be too heartbreaking.

I almost did that but thanks to the foundation you gave me. I met this lady online, Facebook to be precise and she is a learned atheist. I've tried to convince her in my own little way that God really exists, but she gave me points and those point were really intelligent and logical. She has this phrase she always use "Logic Rules". All the Christians that came across her were logically weak cos she won all the argument. I started having small doubts in my mind............ but I'm Ok now. I kinda broke communication with her. Though we are still friends on facebook, but I don't pay any attention to what she post.


This is to God...

Dear God, I'm really scared and I fear the day you would choose to show to the world that you are real. 

A word is enough for the wise, a little action, says it all.

I've had a lot going on this week. No thanks to the weekend past. All the fun....

Today, I couldn't take it aany longer so I went to seek professional help at the general hospital. I was fortunate to see a physician without having to wait years. After I explain what I thought was wrong with me he send me to the Lab to run a test. This morning, OB called me, out of concern(I guess). While I was at the hospital waiting room, I logged on facebook chat and saw him online, so I started a conversation. Anyway, the issue of money came up and he "planked" me. He stopped responding. when I asked if he was still online he responded, then I gave him a piece of my mind in the most diplomatic manner I could think of. Then, he started saying that he does not undersand what I mean by "you always act funny when money is mentioned" Anyway we talked about other things but his response takes time, I know he's not a fast typist but even a 5 year old can respond faster than he does. Anyway, I told him (something he know but refuses to believe) that I was really broke and if I could get some cash from him today, and then guess what? HE WENT OFFLINE.

Such is the person I call boyfriend and wish to spend the rest of my life with. Mtchew... Chioma wise up!


He came online later at about 3:15pm, then he asked how ie, how do I intend to get the money? Anyways I don't know whether to hate on him or just allow him display his true selfl. Besides, the internet connection in his office's not so reliable or he was so busy, anything could be possible for his logging off.

Anyways, my love still goes out to you, it's up to you to take or leave it. The good thing being that I know what I want from a marriage-bound relationship and this(I'm sure) is not it.

Plastic surgeries

Coming soon!!

you insignificant human being how Dare YOU WRITE SUCH RUBBISH ????

Today, I was just not feeling my "relationship" at all. So I sent this  link(my blog) to OB in his Facebook chat box(he was offline), adding that I know what he reads might ruin our friendship but that I just wanted him to know. Later, he came on line while I was off. So he called me and asked me what I sent. I told him it was better he read it himself. He scanned through the last post(precedeing this). Anyway to cut a short story shorter, he sent me this "you insignificant human being how Dare YOU WRITE SUCH RUBBISH ????" on my Facebook chat.

Anyways, he called later and invited me for a bachelors eve this coming friday. He said it would be fun and ofcourse, he did not sound so happy (which is not unusual) He said he would let me know as time goes by how we meet. I appologised for making him sad after the blog stuff, not for writing it. I will continue to write what I want, on my blog It's mine or is it?

I'm in Soup!

OB called today around lunch break and told me to log on to facebook so we could chat. I did. He asked if the laptop on my facebook profile was mine, I told him it was and that it was up for sale. BTW I told him some days ago that I needed to buy a laptop (since my Laptop he helped me fix  last year never worked). He asked me if there was anything else I wanted to buy and I told him no. He then complained of a headache so I asked him if he went to bed late last night, he affirmed saying he stayed up to watch the Oscars. I asked him if he had taken some medications and he said yes.


Then he wrote "I'm broke". I was shocked when I saw that! What does he take me for? He still hasn't paid the 5grand I borrowed him. It's either he is sick or I am! I think I am because why would I let such a thing happen to me? It's not like I didn't know about him before I agreed to go out with him, but I really believed he wanted to turn a new leaf! What rubbish have I gotten myself into? He didn't even say "hey! long time" or stuff like that!


I really need to get my money back, just that I don't know how to go about it. I need my money back!


.......................How do I get my money back?