Thursday, March 22, 2012

A prayer for my heart.

Lord give me a heart that loves, and doesn't hurt, a head to keep my heart from harm's way!
     - chiek... 

Monday, March 19, 2012


When people cry about heartbreak, I smile cos

1. I've been there. 

2. I know they'll get over it eventually. Then, 

3. Love is a beautiful thing. I know you'll be wondering what love being beautiful has to do with heartbreak. This is it, while they are lamenting, you can feel the love they have for that person emitting and that feeling is usually strong. But like I said, they'll eventually get over it. Maybe in 3months, 2years, but the will; partially cos time heals all wounds then completely when the fall in love again. I just pray it works out well this time else I fear the person night stop believing in love and might turn into a beast.

Friday, March 16, 2012

We run the World!

I'm not trying to sound arrogant or proud. 

It's not like I don't need a man in my life,i just think that he needs me more than I need him . Afterall, God saw how lonely Adam was before he took out a rib from him to form Eve(the one who would complete him). In essence, he was made incomplete and then completed with Eve. 

Ladies! It's the man alone(by the grace of God that knows who will complete him.). 
Listen, the man must choose you first. You can't choose him. He does the choosing first, and it's only then you can make your choice. You can decide to choose him back or you wait to be choosen again. 

But first of all make sure you are happy with who and what you are, then try to place yourself in places (good places) where you will be seen/found.

Whoever sees you as his missing rib will definitely choose you.

Yeah a major problem is that some men don't know what they lack or are missing. That's why couples fall out after the man discovers the woman they are with is not who they should be with. 

So ladies, when a man chooses you, you still have a lot of background checks to do. You need to be sure the man knows himself. Cos if he doesn't know himself, how would he know what he's lacking inside of him.

Ladies you have alot of work to do.

I'll continue on this some other time Ciao.

Thursday, March 15, 2012

The break up..i think

I've had this note on my phone since January, but after what happened today I decided to put it up. My intention was that I'ld break up with him, but somehow we did not break up. 

The note of January

Now OB is officially gone. This is cos he has finally publicised his picture with juliet on facebook. I asked him though and he said it was during their end of year party. It will really be dumb of me to believe that line. I feel bad for being dumped but I try to look at the bright side of it all. I will now commit less sin cos he's gone. Now it's just me by myself. With a couple of guys who like me but don't get the same reaction from me. I'll work on that. I'll bring out the flirty part of me(if it really exists). It's just that when I like someone romantically, it's hard to like someone else the same way. And if I don't like you romantically, really can't hide it either. That person tends to irritate me. But now with OB gone, I'll see that I improve on that other side of me.


But today, I asked OB if he felt we were working and he replied that he was tired of my asking that question all the time. Yes, I've asked the question alot, but he never answered me. He later asked if I wanted to go and I said yes, then he logged out.

He called by phone twice, but I was in the restroom and did not have the call credit to return the call. (even if I had, I won't call him).

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

The End times' Here Mum...and I'm scared.....for my Kids unborn

This post is directed to my Mum, though I know she won't see it cos the best she does on the internet is to read the news via her mobile phone.

Mum, this is it. With the situation of things around the world especially in my dear country Nigeria, I don't feel like I want to get married. The reason being that I don't want to bring up my Kids in this cruel world. This world is full of wickedness.

If raising my kids is up to me and my (future) extended family alone, I have no problem. But my child will have to go to school, he/she will have to socialize and then......he gets mixed-up messages or rather mixed up ideas. Is family right or is family really being logical, Does God really exist? Stuffs like that!

The forces outside are really strong and I'm afraid to say that they are becoming stronger by the day. Their influence is becoming stronger by every passing minute and it is scary, sorry I had to repeat myself there but I'm  really scared.

I look around and people I admire and respect turn around and declare that God doesn't exist! How heartbreaking!

So you see Mother, I don't want to raise a child that will go to school and get all the knowledge he can and then doubt the existence of God, it will be too heartbreaking.

I almost did that but thanks to the foundation you gave me. I met this lady online, Facebook to be precise and she is a learned atheist. I've tried to convince her in my own little way that God really exists, but she gave me points and those point were really intelligent and logical. She has this phrase she always use "Logic Rules". All the Christians that came across her were logically weak cos she won all the argument. I started having small doubts in my mind............ but I'm Ok now. I kinda broke communication with her. Though we are still friends on facebook, but I don't pay any attention to what she post.

This is to God...

Dear God, I'm really scared and I fear the day you would choose to show to the world that you are real. 

Friday, March 9, 2012

A word is enough for the wise, a little action, says it all.

I've had a lot going on this week. No thanks to the weekend past. All the fun....

Today, I couldn't take it aany longer so I went to seek professional help at the general hospital. I was fortunate to see a physician without having to wait years. After I explain what I thought was wrong with me he send me to the Lab to run a test. This morning, OB called me, out of concern(I guess). While I was at the hospital waiting room, I logged on facebook chat and saw him online, so I started a conversation. Anyway, the issue of money came up and he "planked" me. He stopped responding. when I asked if he was still online he responded, then I gave him a piece of my mind in the most diplomatic manner I could think of. Then, he started saying that he does not undersand what I mean by "you always act funny when money is mentioned" Anyway we talked about other things but his response takes time, I know he's not a fast typist but even a 5 year old can respond faster than he does. Anyway, I told him (something he know but refuses to believe) that I was really broke and if I could get some cash from him today, and then guess what? HE WENT OFFLINE.

Such is the person I call boyfriend and wish to spend the rest of my life with. Mtchew... Chioma wise up!

He came online later at about 3:15pm, then he asked how ie, how do I intend to get the money? Anyways I don't know whether to hate on him or just allow him display his true selfl. Besides, the internet connection in his office's not so reliable or he was so busy, anything could be possible for his logging off.

Anyways, my love still goes out to you, it's up to you to take or leave it. The good thing being that I know what I want from a marriage-bound relationship and this(I'm sure) is not it.