Thursday, December 16, 2010

Higher Place

I have been having this feeling for a while. On Saturday (or Friday, not too sure) the feeling became really strong. this feeling is a feeling of greatness- a bright future, very bright future. Got to church the following Sunday only to confirm the feeling. This is because the whole Bible readings revolved around being the light of the world. letting your light shine. I took it as a prophesy into my life.

That day, I was called to join the church council and I knew I was going in the right direction.

I'll get there, I'm really sure about that....

Watch me sail..

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Oh Jeez!!

Watched for the second time the movie "He's just not that into you" and I realized some things in the movie actually apply to me, like... when a guy gives you his card to call him and he doesn't collect your number.

In my case he gave me his card. I saw seen him a couple of times and he had complained that I didn't call (I should have given him my number  so that he does the calling-talk about not thinking straight). Anyway, after I called he never gets back the way I think he should, so I stop. Then when I see him, he asks why I don't call. ....OK then I call again, and again it seems I'm bugging.


Thursday, December 9, 2010

How I feel?

I feel like I'm temporarily on my own... and hoping that things work out for the better.

I started developing feeling for him (Uche, the Insurance guy) from the day I said yes to his proposal ( not marriage). Though I said yes because I was just lonely and scared....and he seemed Ok. 

How it started?  We were just friends, he always made some comments (moves according to him)but I never really paid attention to them cos there was this other guy (Tony) I liked (Let's leave the story of this other guy for another day).  But then why should I pay attention, afterall he said he was engaged then later he said he was married. I don't date married men, I can only allow them pay for my meal. 

Though I enjoyed and looked forward to his company even though I kept him waiting most of the time. One one particular day I told him something confidential concerning this other guy Tony and he was dissapointed with me. He was like all the while he has been making advances and I have been "fooling" myself around. Anyway, I sharply decided to "dump" Tony and go with him instead, cos logically, It seemed wiser. That I guess was my mistake, cos I should have still "posed" small before saying yes to him. 

Now he doesn't call and I am not desperate , so I let thing be as they are.

I can't and won't force myself on any man.


Tuesday, December 7, 2010


Now we're coming to the end of the year, I've been reflecting on this particular year 2010... I really had great dreams and goals.

I can boast of achieving some of them. All thanks be to God.

I'm looking forward to the new year cos a lot of great things r' gonna happen in my life. me sail...